heeey ~
i havent written in forever. well things are just so confusing.
i have a few boys in mind that i may like. however i keep falling for the same one over & over again. and im just so confused on what his intentions really are.
my friends dont want me to like him, but i cant help it.
i really do like him. and may kinda still love him.

im a sucker for this boy.


now im in the computer room with dave, who by the way figured out something that occured monday, without me saying a word. crazyness. monday was interesting

my birthday is march 7.
4 more dayys!
i'mma be 18 and i'm so excitedd!

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going back to GJ. ill still try 2 update this


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heey!

david is a loser ! and he thinks hes the best but hes really not. lol

im in public affairs now &&& charleen is leaving me in statistics. shes droppin it that loser.

no . i`m not okay. =[

heyy! ♥

today is pam`s bday! HAPPY SiXTEENTH BiRTHDAY PAMELA! woohoo!

today is also 5 months. but i dont seem to care anymore just cause im so aggravated with everything going on. ugh im sick of life.

i love him so much though.

yesterday i saw george working haha

i got him gum cause i constantly think of him and i know how he likes that gum.

charleen went on a trip today so i guess ill be talkin 2 myself todayy. or maybe sayuri and erin. and pam.


imma gonna try 2 get the courage to talk 2 him even tho he`ll prlly ignore me anyways. I LOVE HIMM

hey hey ♥

its lunchtime and i have been tired ALL day. guess thats what i get for going to bed at 2:30 am and waking up at 6 am. i have no lunch. im just not that hungry anymore..
my therapist told me that i THiNK too much. that i need to stop letting everything get to me and bother me but i cant help it. it just does.
my dad telling me i`m a disappointment that bothers me
my mom telling me i never do anything right that bothers me.
my dad telling me im better off living in the streets or betteroff dead that bothers me
nyame not talking to me that bothers me
my brother bugging me about everything that bothers me.
the death of william ishoo bothers me as well.

ughh why does everything have to bother me?

this week just suckss s0oO badd.
i cant wait for it to be over

and tomorrow is 5 months. im not looking forward to it anymore since he`s not talking 2 me. ughhh

im gonna go and talk to charleen about my stupidass problems. thank god i have her in school with me to help me out otherwise id go crazy.

byeee

why doesnt he just talk to me?

apparently im a liar...
when i say i love you to someone i mean it.
but apparently i dont wanna make him feel like an ass when he says it..

this hurts that he thinks that =[

hey!
i hate my fucking family. im in school right now. halloween was a suckkyy night. but for school i got washout hair color and colored my hair pinkk well the tips. yeppiie

then i hung out with the love of my life till like 4. thenn i walkedd homee.




i hate my familyy! =]
according to my fatherrr im a dissappointment. isnt that just great?! ohh yeah

I CANTTT TAKE THIS FAMILY ANYMORE. IM SICK OF THESE FIGHTS AND EVERYONEEE. I CANT WAIT TO GET OUTT..

ughhhh =[

life suckks

heyy!
livejournal works at school. the only site besides xanga that i actually usee that workss.







anywayss.

heyy!
um im in school.

and thats about it.

heyy!

i`m in school right now. public affairs. and livejournal is not blocked. thats so cool
yeppiie. my finger hurts like hell. they burnt this thing on my finger yesterday at the dermatologist. i fainted after they finished.


i love my boyfriend ♥

ive been meaning to update but just never had the chance.

s0o im back at woodlands and its not that bad but i just miss magnet. heres my schedule.

( schedule )

pretty good i guess. charleen & nyame are in most of my classes s0o thats cool =] um lets see. my weekend was busyy. friday after school i had work then kristinas sweet sixteen which was s0o much fun esp with nellie there. haha. i called nyame a bunch of times and junior, max & thom talked to him for a bit. i was forced to dance by a certain person AHEMnellieAHEM and yeah so i danced for maybe 3 min if not less with junior and katrina comess up YOU HAVE A BOYFRIEND DONT CHEAT and im like omg im not doing anything lol. then we left around 1ish. work the next day. did some of my hw before work then my uncles 50th bday party. it was fun i chilled with kav & jas & faerz & mariam. and kav drove us home around 11 and we chilled at his house and i called nyame. and hes like i heard u were getting down and dirty with junior haha and im like wat u talkin about and hes like u were grinding haha and hes like why u cheatin on me and i was just crackin up lol. anyways then around 3 i got home and i went to bed. work the next mrng and i saw charleen & ariel at mcdonalds. and ariel gave the picture of me & nyame she has been talkin about for char told hold on to for me. i saw mr.ives at my job too. at 3 i got off and me & charleen went back to my house and got changed for erins sweet sixteen
quote of the day inquire within. wait i thought u inquire without haha .
so at around 8ish nyame called and said he was here so i went and left the party and i went to see him and erin & charleen got kinda mad but theyre okay now =] i missed him s0o much <3 i hadnt really hung out with him for so long. today at school he gave me my gift haha. i think imma start walkin home everyday since i have no 8th period and theres like nothing to do. =] update laterz & i dont understand why everyone has to get on my case and tell me what to do. i do what i want and if that means i wanna be with nyame then so be it. its none of your damn business anyways =]

my new scheduleeee:

1. AP ENVIROMENTAL - ZALANOWSKI

2. AP ENGLISH

3. CRIMINAL JUSTICE(MP 1&2) ; PSYCHOLOGY (MP 3&4)

4. P.E. - MCFALL (DAYS 1,3&5)

5. COMP. ECONOMICS - GLADSTONE

6. LUNCH

7. HS HEALTH - DELZIO

8. NOTHING weeeeeeeeeeee!

magnet is officially closed and i dont wanna go back to woodlands but i have to. i`m gonna miss magnet so much but i`ll always have the memories. i`m gonna miss ariel & all the people from harrison & irvington. i`m gonna miss being able to get up in the middle of class and the teachers not sayin anything. i`m gonna miss me & ariel's math talks about how much we hate math. i`m gonna miss art with ms.august and how i never did any work and still managed to get a 95. i`m gonna miss film and the good times we had even if some of the member of our crew fought quite a bit. i`m gonna miss gym even if i didnt go half the time. and homeroom didnt go there either. i`m gonna miss everything and everybody.
well woodlands.. here i come.

R.I.P WESTCHESTER MAGNET ACADEMY

hey hey!
well i got back from iran & sweden on friday night. i called a few people to say i`m back but not many. i heard that my school was shut down. and right now my mom doesnt know wat she wants to do. saturday i got a call from charleen whos in chile =) and then saturday night i went and hung out with katrina, eric, and their friends quinz & sin (sp) . it was fun we went to applebees and stuff. then we went to see march of the penguins [katrina's choice] which is when everyone else left. so me and eric talked throughout the movie so katrina gave me her fone to call people so i wouldnt talk so i wnet out and called ariel and talked to her for a bit then i called nyame and talked to him for a bit. then katrina's dad picked us up around 10:30 it was fun.
my trip was great though. my cousins are awesome. i had such a great time there the only thing i missed was my friends & nyame. well um thursday katrina wants me to hangout again [shes leaving for spain on saturday] with her & eric and she said i could tell nyame to come too. so if my mom lets me go out it shall be fun. =) woo!

i`m gonna miss katrina thoughhh i wuv herrrr! hehe

hey hey !

well i haven`t done a real update in a long time so i figured why not now. well alot has happened.. mostly with my mom. me & my mom were never the best of friends but she used to be able to trust me and she would always believe me rather than my brother but recently its been the opposite and i dont get it. its not like i did anything for her not to trust me. she doesnt like my friends for some reason and most of them she doesnt even really know them enough to judge them. basically she thinks by grounding me she can keep me away from the people she doesnt want me to hang out with. hopefully things will be okay soon with that though.
i hate fights especially fights with her. they never usually last this long and i hate it. i hate going to bed crying every night becuase i had a fight with her and she makes me feel like my whole life was a mistake. i hate how she loves to make me feel bad for things i did. i hate how she makes me feel that im always wrong and shes always right. at least my dad is on my side...

well i really like nyame :] and i dunno. i think throughout this whole situation with my mom my friends & him are the only reason why i still manage to have a smile on my face every day. i`m gonna miss him & my friends so much when i go to iran saturday. i`m going for 3 weeks & then sweden for 10 days. and idk wat the hell im gonna do. not being able to talk to my friends & nyame for that long is so much for me. they do have internet there though and i will have to download aim & talk to them or i`ll go crazy.

well tomorrow im going to applebees to have lunch with ariel & maybe lizz & nyame better come :] hehe it'll prolly be the last time i see them before i go to iran.
charleen came over this mrng to pick up my northface to borrow while shes away in chile. friday i`m going over katrina's for dinner and we might go to the movies if the parents let us. and saturday i`m leaving. i wanna know my regents grades i called this mrng but caputo was busy. i`l call again later. i need to clean my house today. oh fun wow i think this is long enough.. ♥